Maybe the most basic and lasting love is one that doesn’t need to do, show up, be there, perform, demonstrate, or conform.

A warm feeling, a heart centered knowing, is all the heart really needs to know “I love this person”.

Nothing needs proving that’s already known.

I love you, be who you are and love your life.

My biggest break up was with myself

My hardest break up was with myself

And not my true self

It was an exhausted and story written self

A fabrication

A conglomeration of me, lintballs, and hamster turds

A mixture that felt like mine

But it wasn’t

And it took years of fighting to see

Years of anguish to understand

That I am not that, or the shame, or the guilt, or whatever. I’m not wrong and I wasn’t to begin with.

I did have a lot to learn. Life teaches.

I shed that old skin, surrendered the good boy for something better

I trust I have now whatever it takes to live, be, and be merry.

One day at a time. My best is now

Creator, source, god, all, universe, whatever label you use, or even if you’re agnostic and have no label..

Consider the most compassionate, loving, patient, understanding person you’ve ever met, and multiply that capacity by a billion.

That’s the level of love and support you always have with creation. the most unconditional love you could ever imagine.

Life will do its thing, and, you will always be loved and important.

My heart hopes and trusts this will find all who will benefit to know.

You are loved! And there are no conditions.

Life is an interesting ride

And sometimes..

We can walk around holding onto a lot of stuff.

Where are our feelings?

What are we holding?

It never hurts to take a breathe, see things with softer eyes.

We all have a lot of depth, more than a lot of us know.

Sometimes we walk around with others’ feelings, behaviors, and don’t even realize.

Take time for yourself. Be gentle. Be wise. Whatever is unpleasant shall pass.

Take care of yourself, your life, in the process.

Be as kind as you can be.

Sending lots of love

In spiritually practice, life, there is always room for you.

To be you

That is the gift

Sometimes my support group and friends felt more like a confrontation group.

Picking at me, pulling out and exposing things I didn’t want or plan to discuss.

Another time, I thought. It’s my life and my choosing, I thought. I was bewildered.

I didn’t know how to let go. It felt so unfriendly, violating.

As if I was there to be the silent witness to the picking of the vultures.

My “safety” laid in solace.

My peace disrupted.

My attempts at healing fell short. The next through confrontation left no stone unturned, no flesh unburned.

Rooted out of me. Diamond tipped boring bit into the soul cavity for an eternal internal excavation, and I as the witness. The silent soldier, felt on entry, and now upon release seems to had grown barbs.

But they were there to pick it out. To help me pick it all out.

As horrid and exposing as it was, despite the tremendous loss, including personal safety, and with silent breath from a quaking exhausted soul, the change was real.

I had been given a second chance. A gift. The process was mine to own, unfamiliar or not. The fire burned with unconditional intensity and love of me, not at me, bringing out my best and truest form, me.

I appreciate my life, this opportunity. I get to be me. A battle was fought over me. So much time energy love devotion sacrifice etc, all for me. Unconditionally pulling for me. To be me.

Not what I thought after all and I’m so thankful. This is the life for me.

Freedom in my own body, skin, life.

Now I invite all of my light to shine!

Thank you

“Women are enthralled and men are forgiven.”

This quote or thought presented itself to me in a dream last night, and I took it in context with one’s own soul journey.

After a nice relaxing day, a ride out to the beach for a nice swim, here is how I’m presently entertaining the thought:

Women are to receive after all their giving.

Men are to be forgiven for all they’ve done to have and provide for a family.

-Lots of ways to look at it.

The masculine and feminine relationship with mutually supportive roles, and unique complementing characteristics.

I like the balance and reciprocity of that thought.

What was eating at the insides 

Has surfaced. 

Decades, a lifetime, amassed on the hilltop, in clear view.

It can stand there for all I care in all of its glory, for what it is. 

I’m too tall for any shadow. 

I am that which has triumphed and more.

Now I’m going to go rest, and allow all of my humanity, peace, sanity, and all, to illuminate my heart. 

If you want unlimited fun and freedom you are in the right place

The imagination is your ticket, ride, destination, and more

Do yourself a favor

Don’t try to domesticate life or put it into a cute outfit

Life itself is here to be experienced, seen explored, by you, and through you.

Have fun, the big ride.

You are an important ingredient, and just as untamed.

Life is wild, free, and will always be.

When I truly felt safe and grounded, my perspective, the intensity of the feelings, changed and wound-down so much.

A lot went into feeling safer, more healthy, established, me.

Today I’m observing calm. And what calm can do.

Truth is, I was upset from the root, and carried that feeling, that tightness, for a long time. Decades. For decades I was so upset, and, couldn’t see or value what I do today.

Take a breathe. Give it a day. Stay in the game.

Love and compassion is your compass. And that includes you! Probably, do that right away if you can find space for it. That’s where the gold is 🫶