Out there, there is a field that calms me, a flower that sees me, a hilltop vista that unlocks and transforms every cell in my body. Out there somewhere there is a breeze that touches me just right, a ray of sunshine bursting through the leaves renewing my soul.

There exists a tree that loves me back.

An ocean wave that shares its grace. A patch of grass where I’ve never felt more myself.

A moment in time, where my world slows. 

Somewhere in this world, there is a space, a place, for me, where all of my contentment is restored. Where my life comes together, and my furled little wings can spread wide. I know I find that place. I know it is for me.

Now that i know what healthy boundaries are, I know my value, I can see the unhealthy dance we’ve been doing, I’ll only become bolder in how I show up for me, honor my feelings.

You live your life. I’ll live mine.

How far into the muck did you go?

Did you find your rainbow colored gold at the bottom?

Ride the bull for minutes rather than seconds?

Surf your biggest waves?

Have you faced death and died in the mirror?

Stepped outside of your suit to admire the necessity and creativity of your stories?

Did you learn yet to be gentle with yourself, the real value of life?

Have you found what makes you happy, or at least what works for you?

Did anyone ever tell you how beautiful you are for just being you?

I just made a choice, in this moment, to never give my power away again. I decide how I feel. Never again does there need to be a moment where I feel powerless, and all the potential and negative downstream effects that come with that.. Sure, there will be opportunities to grow along the way, things that come up.. no resistance, just acknowledgement, love, and patience.

I define me, and thoughts create feelings.

I’ll make the best of them because I want and worthy of the best for me.

So it’s my choice, and I’ll take it.

There is a flow within life, I am learning, that is packed with magic and corresponds perfectly with your individual tuning as a person.

Regardless, whether in flow or pushing upstream, the universe will always conspire to help you!

You’re always supported ❤️

If you get to be you in the process, it’s for you.

If you do not get to be you in the process, it’s for anyone.

It’s a little early

The dance went late

I left my coat and gloves

Maybe the driver can return them

When I saw you darling,

Your face aglow

I didn’t imagine you’d be so beautiful

Under the pale moonlight

Sparkling, dazzling, imaginary soul

Can you create yourself into this realm for me to know?

To which end do you belong?

The suffering of a thousand souls

Waited this long

Why not try something new.

Love

I think then I felt that way because I wasn’t “trying hard enough” or could see that what I was doing wasn’t going to make me achieve things I deeply wanted, so I began to settle, and life was “hard”.

That was my experience, and generally, the energy I was in, creating.

Now, I’ve discarded that old waiting for the shoe to drop mentality because I have an entirely different self loving and trusting approach to life. I don’t need to try harder. I get to be me, and that’s fantastic. All I really need to do is be happy with myself.

A much better and more congruent energy to be in, create.

I’m so glad I can know all things in my world are good things, and my breath just gets deeper and more relaxed in the process as I gratefully ground into this peaceful existence.

Now, I dive deeper into the opportunity and experience of finding my true authenticity and sharing it with the world.

To be…known.

One step at a time!

The healthier we become, the easier it is to allow ourselves to be helped.

“I got this” can be inauthentic. lone wolf.

With good health comes an eagerness to accept help.

What a wild ride. Went wild wild ride.

From the mundane, to the deepest depths of the mystical, and back again. Is this what balances? I suppose it is.

Something about this feels forced. I’m going to put this down for now. Hoping everyone is doing great.