If only we knew the end.

If only we saw the beginning.

Realize the tide is highest at noon.

The further you go, good is sure to follow.

These steps precede the fall.

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An unimaginable quest. Made just for you.

Congrats! You kept going

Regarding history, time is the element.

A perfectly woven tale. A bow on top.

Amidst the confusion a white horse with wings.

An evangelical tide rushes in.

The proverbs of the holy, the disdain of few.

Imagine yourself in a carriage. What dreams may come. Only a night or two left.

Peace brother. It is aside you.

If this is a dream I pray to wake up.

If a nightmare, I can tolerate it.

Dear lord, what are your plans for me?

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I imagine something big for this little heart.

See you on the other side.

Goodnight.

I had a dream one night..

we were together

We have always been friends

Close content friends

But this moment was different and felt real

I can’t explain it

Now I see deeper into your eyes

And they seem to see deeper into mine

But it was just a dream

I See more, feel more

Even though it was only a dream

Experienced in another time and place

Yesterday isn’t today, and tomorrow isn’t tonight

I remember your face..

I wonder what I’ll dream tonight

Each reality it’s own impression

A bell that cannot be unrung

Though I know it was a dream

There in that space so kind and warm

An astral basket woven into realities stream

It was just a dream

But you seem to remember me now too

Life is funny

I’m glad we found each other here and now

We create under a new sun

Yet the same souls

Playing new roles

It’s okay to dream

It’s all coming back

In the moment we United

We found love again

A new way

A different life

Now friends, previously my wife?

I won’t overthink it

I’ll just accept

Dreams are wonderful

Friends this time

Thank God for you

It’s a millennia away

And yet you are with me now

I know those beautiful eyes

(As a kid and into adult life)

I created a story to feel safe (bc I didn’t)

about a perfect family (bc they weren’t)

It was necessary to get by (bc my brain wanted me to survive)

I used that created story to whip myself (rather than face deficit of support and broader terror that I was not safe)

It was easier than accepting the reality that I didn’t feel secure, for survival.

And that I can trust myself.

I wasn’t wrong.

I’m strong enough and safe enough now within my own self to see it.

They love me the best they can.

It doesn’t define me, or how I will love. It doesn’t define me!

When a moral human is driven to emotional despair, acting out, that human then uses their own morals to destroy themself for doing so.

Oh man. Be gentle with yourself

When you decide to conceal something about you from someone else you don’t allow them to love what you might not.

Whereas, you may not presently accept this part of you, they might accept and love right beyond it.

Chill out and trust!

You don’t have anger.

Anger has you.

Free yourself.

Firstly, you are unconditionally loved by god and freedom is your birthright.

I find many people that spend a ton of energy of external freedom are quite unfree internally.

Comparatively, I find the people who are internally free are always free, whatever the environment.

Personal work and healing is so valuable. Stop running and identify the distractions when it is your time.

“The way out is in”

I used to think I needed to be better. I used to think I needed to be tougher, if I learned enough outside of myself I’d somehow find my value and happiness.

Well, as it turns out, loving myself as an organism that naturally grows on its own, loving and liking me, spending time with me, valuing me, being honest and open with me, pouring my energy into me, is all I ever wanted and needed to find my value and joy.

My world is opening up. Replaced “shoulds” and “I have to’s” with wants and I get to’s.

By loving me, investing in myself, ignoring all the external noise, and trusting I am enough, I’ve discovered a free and rich countryside full of options that I get to decide on what’s best for me.

It takes time. It is worth it. Find your true north. And keep going! I’ll be by your side working, too.