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When I truly felt safe and grounded, my perspective, the intensity of the feelings, changed and wound-down so much. A lot went into feeling safer, more healthy, established, me. Today I’m observing calm. And what calm can do. Truth is, I was upset from the root, and carried that feeling, that tightness, for a longContinue reading “Witnessing my own healing”

Life itself is more sacred, more valuable, than any sacred act or demonstration

I felt so inferior in comparison to them And for a long time, blamed myself, pushed myself Eventually it got to be too much And the blaming, the criticisms, the reasons I was okay and they were just jerks, became a reality..how I saw them. And with lots of hurt and disappointed energy. As IContinue reading “Retrospect”

God please grow that within me is light and love God please let me release what does not serve me, and feel new God please let the muscle that worries atrophy God please keep my focus clear Please God, keep me safe in your love, and help me trust the wonderful world you provide forContinue reading “Letting go”

It’s been a long road And The good news is I get to focus on the positive In my life Of my life That there is Life Lots of reasons to be positive, and I can chose what I focus on Took what it took to get here The charge is less The message isContinue reading “Long road”

I was so needing of approval.. for several reasons. Looking in the mirror.. I’d also become accustomed to others needing my approval. And I remember feeling in strong disapproval of some of their actions, and secretly protesting inside, withholding, not using my words but controlling with emotion. What an inversion. Part of being good enoughContinue reading “Another healing breakthrough”

I was never meant to hold this ship together That ship So used, torn, and wet That boat was just to get me started That boat, can no longer be salvaged or reclaimed I’d grown to love it All I had known, unknown Stranded And over time have come to realize There’s a lot differentContinue reading “Alternative”

Another topic We may refrain Another life For you to see Imagine the layers of a cake The sweet morsels Time honored tradition To make you your best Relax a bit

At home I felt inadequate, inferior They were better Out in the world I felt superior, believing my family was better, and somehow, that meant I was too. I cared deeply for others and yet felt different, disconnected, wiser. I longed for connection but needed to stay loyal to the family line, so I livedContinue reading “Healing breakthrough”

As the temperature rises My little pot Begins to quake Louder as it becomes Grumbling, groaning Creaking hot pot A building phenomenon Heat compounding pressure I can feel it in my chest Such agitation in this little pot Trembling water Expansion upon itself This container Such thin walls Cradling this ignition Rotating inner tension UnseenContinue reading “Conversion”