Author Archives: bluemoose13

If you can’t see your own shadows It’s probably your own self protecting you  Bc it knows if you knew,  You’d beat the ever living shit out of yourself.  So, as you get safer, more able to give yourself grace, you will begin to know (that which has been in the shadows) 

I know they love me They are just so different And what I receive in return doesn’t seem to fill my cup And I love them And it’s possible I don’t fill theirs either And they love me So guess we love each other Yet, there is such deeper connection and satisfaction to be enjoyed.Continue reading “How do you love in degrees??”

I’m sure I have my blind spots Certainly I can be shallow When it comes to my inner world and emotions, there is tremendous depth. Sometimes, many times, when I have shared with others, I am confident the depth of the experience is not landing, and rather, is being substituted with something unfitting, and manyContinue reading “Cheapness”

It’s been great  I’ve had everything I need All provisions met But for one thing  Just a detail I mean, who could complain, it’s been so easy right?  Wouldn’t want to get carried away, lose perspective on how grateful I should be  I have nothing to complain about  Really, it’s been great.  Seriously, I haveContinue reading “Hollow Diamond”

Kissed suddenly  Warmth and life in my face  I am infused with ecstacy All my life a cold stone  Only dreaming of warmth  What it might be  How it might change the state of these particles  At last, I am awoken  Thankfully, it did not crack my core Seized and heightened in the glorious moment Continue reading “Life fulfilled”

After 3 1/2 years, a significant veil of denial has lifted. Evidently, and despite my world blowing up, tons of counseling, uncovering loads of unacknowledged trauma and stuff, I had to walk the last 3 1/2 years, feel all that pain, to eventually and finally wake up to my trauma. It took me 3 1/2Continue reading “Veil of denial lifting”

Kissed suddenly  Warmth and life in my face  I am infused with ecstacy All my life a cold stone  Only dreaming of warmth  What it might be  How it might change the state of these particles  At last, I am awoken  Seized and heightened in the glorious moment  My interior accelerated in jubilance She scoopsContinue reading “Surrender to survival”

No more anger Just tears Happy tears I ran and ran And finally gave in There all along So much lovvvvvvve I now know me

I wake to peace My eyes roll wide My tongue utters gratitude Birds song out my window So fresh The sun is already at work Bees buzzing My mind is so quiet Thank you for this time

I respect and honor your feelings.  Your feelings come from thoughts.  Some of your feelings seem quite uncomfortable to have.  I know you are worthy and can have happiness.  We can change how you feel by focusing on your thinking.  For me, this was foundational to changing my life for the better. I feel better,Continue reading “Healing note.. thoughts create feelings”