Author Archives: bluemoose13

I was so needing of approval.. for several reasons. Looking in the mirror.. I’d also become accustomed to others needing my approval. And I remember feeling in strong disapproval of some of their actions, and secretly protesting inside, withholding, not using my words but controlling with emotion. What an inversion. Part of being good enoughContinue reading “Another healing breakthrough”

I was never meant to hold this ship together That ship So used, torn, and wet That boat was just to get me started That boat, can no longer be salvaged or reclaimed I’d grown to love it All I had known, unknown Stranded And over time have come to realize There’s a lot differentContinue reading “Alternative”

Another topic We may refrain Another life For you to see Imagine the layers of a cake The sweet morsels Time honored tradition To make you your best Relax a bit

At home I felt inadequate, inferior They were better Out in the world I felt superior, believing my family was better, and somehow, that meant I was too. I cared deeply for others and yet felt different, disconnected, wiser. I longed for connection but needed to stay loyal to the family line, so I livedContinue reading “Healing breakthrough”

As the temperature rises My little pot Begins to quake Louder as it becomes Grumbling, groaning Creaking hot pot A building phenomenon Heat compounding pressure I can feel it in my chest Such agitation in this little pot Trembling water Expansion upon itself This container Such thin walls Cradling this ignition Rotating inner tension UnseenContinue reading “Conversion”

For days weeks nights and years I sat with this angry and sad fire It wouldn’t take no for answer It had me convinced that I was wrong Convinced that I should respond Fear, guilt, shame, nothing out of bounds Items, topics, desires, some which I can’t claim mine So much rage, guilt, sadness EachContinue reading “Expression”

There is a fire raging inside A heartburn beyond words Aching in every corner Burning from the inside out An angry furnace Quaking, swelling, under tremendous force A rotting stillness disturbed Loss of quietness This secret… may erupt I felt every piece and particle Burning my flesh Harming my insides Stealing my blood Each layerContinue reading “Internal combustion”

Somewhere deep inside is a voice unheard Somewhere, and the depths of my being a harp plays, full vibrant, notes and body with love, joy, safety, peace, and freedom. Somewhere deep in these steps as a soul that never gave in, gave up, relinquished it’s value. Somewhere deep in this heart of mine lay aContinue reading “Afraid to care”

I make no declarations, no promises, of who I’ll be or what I might believe, today Or tomorrow Until I do I close no doors Opening myself Strengthening my signal This I can’t rush It’s not a “no” It’s a not right now I’m altering my own trajectory The vibration of my soul I appreciateContinue reading “Openness”

Love doesn’t look or wait for reasons