Retrospect

I felt so inferior in comparison to them

And for a long time, blamed myself, pushed myself

Eventually it got to be too much

And the blaming, the criticisms, the reasons I was okay and they were just jerks, became a reality..how I saw them. And with lots of hurt and disappointed energy.

As I healed, releasing these old stories to start fresh with them was not like flicking a light switch.

I had my voice, my preferences. This knew knowledge of who I am. This new strength that supports and loves who I am.

As the old feelings fade, I can also look in the mirror.

Now that I feel equal, now that I know I am so likeable, loveable, and new, I can strive forward and release that old dust.

Let it settle. Become the wave.