After 3 1/2 years, a significant veil of denial has lifted.
Evidently, and despite my world blowing up, tons of counseling, uncovering loads of unacknowledged trauma and stuff, I had to walk the last 3 1/2 years, feel all that pain, to eventually and finally wake up to my trauma.
It took me 3 1/2 years plus to finally give my feelings the importance they deserve. Precipitated by an event, a shattering.. I’ve been through some shit!
I give these feelings importance.
I give my experience importance.
That importance instantly conveys to me. I feel the depth of my experience. My realness is coming in through the cracks. My experience has been very real. The feelings I’ve felt very real. I am very real!
And now that I acknowledge my feelings and importance, I can be present and in reality. I can perceive what a trigger is and have the site to see it in myself, and have the appreciation for what it is and have control in my own life now.
I do acknowledge the old, and, it did better pack its bags. Now that I have you in my target, it’s over!
Starting Anew! 